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babyshower2

So here is a picture of a cake I did a few weeks ago but hadn't had the time to upload. It was for a baby shower for a girl at my church. Her theme was trains. Anyways she really loved the cake and I had fun doing it. It wasn't as big of hassle as the last cake I did at home. I actually had a 1/2 sheet cake pan to use instead of baking two cakes and putting them together. So it was much easier.

Anyways work as continued to be a struggle. I am just going to assume it will always be that way, and I just have to learn  to cope with things better. Let God handle all things. Some days I do better than others. Today I didn't do so good.

There is one thing I have done this week that I am proud of. I decided to try something I have never done before...fast. I decided to give up meat for a week. If you know me and how much I love food, you would know how much of a struggle that is. I did it to help me focus on God and to prove to myself I can give up eathly things for God. I have done good. I started Sunday and I have almost completed the week. But I can say I am looking forward to having a hamburger when I am done with it :)

I am a monthly donator to KLOVE radio(klove) and as a thank you they sent me a small devotional book in the mail. That just brightened my day when I got that. I was really blessed and have been working on it for the past week as well. It has brought about some really good devotionals so far.

Also please remember my boyfriend in your prayers, they had to admit him back into the hospital for a few weeks to work on his blood counts. He has been through alot this past year, and has remained strong in God through it all.

So things are starting to get better at work. Thank you everyone that remembered me in their prayers. Things are starting to slow down and I can actually breathe. I won't have any overtime this weeks, so that is good. All the overtime was really wearing me thin. I was sick last week from it and actually had to call into work one day with a migraine. I have never called in sick before, so everyone know I must have been feeling pretty bad.

I hated being that wrapped up in work. It felt like work was starting to come first before God, and I just can't let that happen. God needs to be number one in everything I do. Now that I have stopped trying to take control of the things going on, everything seems to be falling in to place. God knows what's best for me, I have to remember that.

Jason had some test's run today, so please remember him in your prayers as well.

I really need prayer right now. Work has been really stressful, and it has been hard for me to keep my cool. I have been close to losing it a few times and have felt on the verge of a nervous breakdown. There is just to much to do and not enough people to do it. It is hard for me to feel close to God when I am so focused on what is going on around me and worrying all the time.  I know I need to let go and let God handle it all, but is is hard for me to put aside everything. So I need prayer that I will trust more and not worry about trying to have everything under control, since it's really not mine to control to begin with. I  would really appreciate any prayers.

So I have barely had time to breathe, let alone blog. This month work has kept me extremely busy. We opened our new store yesterday, and I have spent the past couple of weeks helping get it ready. I have been working alot of hours and when I have been at home all I have wanted to was sleep.

But I did want to make a short update. I have been helping with the Wednesday night teen group, last night was my second time. It is taking me awhile to get comfortable being around teenagers again. I know I am not much older than them, but I feel alot older when I am around them and see how they act. It will be a challenge to be able to make any sort of impact on them, but I know God has me in this for a reason.

Hopefully now that we have had our grand opening at work I will be able to start posting regularly again.

I know I haven't written in awhile. The fast pace of the holidays kept me busy just about every day. I barely had time to breathe. Besides the fact I was sick the whole week, I did have a good Christmas. I got to spend alot of time with Jason and his family. Jason bought me the most beautiful cross. It is white gold with diamonds, and a small heart in the center. I love it. Dad loved his tv I got him. I'm glad I could make his happy.

I was able to play my guitar in the Christmas pagent at church, and I am glad I was given that opportunity. I was more relaxed since I was in a group, and I actually had fun with it. It made me realize I need to make an effort to be more involved with the church. An opportunity presented itself tonight. The pastor's wife called me. She was wanting me to help her with the teen class on Wednesday night. She thinks that they might be able to relate to me more since I am closer to their age. She asked me to pray about it and then let her know. I believe God has sent me this opportunity, and I shouldn't pass it up. Maybe I can actually make a difference in someone's life, maybe help them with something that they are going through that I have already been through. I hope that I am able to be in Gods will with this. I do have things in my life though that I need to take care of before I can really be in a leadership role.  I didn't follow through with my plans, and my mouth got me into trouble again with my coworkers. God had to show me that it is really important that I am able to control my tounge. So  I still have alot of praying to do. But I think I am finally learning my lesson with some things.

I know I haven't written in awhile. The fast pace of the holidays kept me busy just about every day. I barely had time to breathe. Besides the fact I was sick the whole week, I did have a good Christmas. I got to spend alot of time with Jason and his family. Jason bought me the most beautiful cross. It is white gold with diamonds, and a small heart in the center. I love it. Dad loved his tv I got him. I'm glad I could make his happy.

I was able to play my guitar in the Christmas pagent at church, and I am glad I was given that opportunity. I was more relaxed since I was in a group, and I actually had fun with it. It made me realize I need to make an effort to be more involved with the church. An opportunity presented itself tonight. The pastor's wife called me. She was wanting me to help her with the teen class on Wednesday night. She thinks that they might be able to relate to me more since I am closer to their age. She asked me to pray about it and then let her know. I believe God has sent me this opportunity, and I shouldn't pass it up. Maybe I can actually make a difference in someone's life, maybe help them with something that they are going through that I have already been through. I hope that I am able to be in Gods will with this. I do have things in my life though that I need to take care of before I can really be in a leadership role.  I didn't follow through with my plans, and my mouth got me into trouble again with my coworkers. God had to show me that it is really important that I am able to control my tounge. So  I still have alot of praying to do. But I think I am finally learning my lesson with some things.

So tomorrow is my long awaited day off. I really do need the time away from work. I need time to breathe and regain my strength. It is harder for me to fight off Satan's attack when I am tired and wore down.

Last night I was begining to feel my "funk" lift away. I had recieved some good comments and read some helpful bible passages, and thought I was finally begining to make progress. So of course today had to be a very stressful day. Everything was thrown at me, my patience and temper tested at ever corner I turned. I am shamed to say I let it get the best of me. I am determined though to rest up on my day off and by Thursday be ready to stand strong.

I do want to thank everyone for their comments and messages though, it really helped. That is the gift I want to thank God for today. He knows whatever it is I need, and always finds a way to show me. Yesterday it was through reading other people's blogs and comments. It seemed like they all said just the things I needed to hear. I am so thankful that God is always there and always knows what you need, if you will just ask and listen.

Monster

Frank Peretti

I just finished reading "Monster" by Frank Peretti. I really enjoyed it. It is his 4th book I have read and I have enjoyed all 4. I have been trying to read only Christian fiction (no more Stephen King for me), and so far he is my favorite writer I have found.

In the past year I have tried to filter what I read, listen to, and watch to only what I see fit for a Christian. It is hard sometimes, letting go of all the things I am became attached to over the years,  but it's always worth it in the end. I always recieve a blessing from whatever it is I am doing.

I have grown so much this year, all because of the trials I have had to face. I know I still have so much more to go though.

I hate to say it but I have been moody the past few days. I have been letting things cloud my mind and keep me seperated from God and the joy I know I can find in him. I have been working alot this week and haven't had a day off since last Monday, so I guess that may be a part of it, it makes me more vunerable to Satan's attacks. I shouldn't make excuses for myself though.

I wasn't able to go to church Wednesday night, but I went last night. So I went a whole week without a church service, so that didn't help matters.

But being at church made me realize the gift I want to write about for Sunday, my pastor. Our church has been blessed with a wonderful, faithful pastor. He goes out of his way to help you whenever you need it. Even if it is in the middle of the night, if you need him he is just a phone call away. He and his family have had a hard year, and a weaker person might have turned their back on God. Instead, they have kept their focus on God, and have made an example to others on how to react to the trials life sends your way. God has really blessed our little church to have such a wonderful leader. You can truly see God's light shining from him.

Hopefully I am coming out of my "funk" as I head someone else call it. I just need time alone to pray and read my Bible. I need to be stronger and keep my eyes focused on God, not matter what life throws my way, because I have seen it can be done.

I just heard about the shooting in the Omaha mall today. It makes me so sick and sad. I will praying very hard for the families that have been affected by this. I can imagine that it being this close to Christmas just makes it that much harder.
The state that the world is coming to is just sickening. It makes me so thankful that I have something to look forward to. I look forward to the fact that "this world is not my home and I'm just passing through". That one day we will be in a place where there will be no more pain like this. That is my gift from God today. That no matter how bad this world gets, no matter how much pain and hate there is, that one day Christ will return and take us home, our real home. Thank you God.

Abundant Gifts: A Daybook Of Grace-filled Devotions

Diane Eble

I have decided that each day I am going to write about one gift God has blessed me with that day. I got the idea from a book "Abundant Gifts" by Diane Eble.  Each day she focused on the gifts God had blessed her with. I have decided I want to do that. I feel like it will help bring me  closer to God and give him the thanks he deserves.

So today I realized how thankful I am that God has blessed me with a wonderful boyfriend who loves me no matter what. Someone that I can talk to about anything that is bothering me, and someone that will forgive me whenever I do something wrong or hurtful to him. He is also a Christian and it is so wonderful to be in a relationship with someone that holds the same morals as you. It makes things a whole lot easier.

The past couple of weeks I had been letting a situation at work bother me. I won't go into details, but let's just say I knew I was doing something wrong. I kept praying and praying about it so that I would stop doing it, yet I never could. I couldn't figure out why until tonight. Through our Bible study God convicted me that I needed to talk to Jason about it and ask his forgiveness. I hadn't actually done anything, more of the fact I was letting thoughts I shouldn't have weigh me down and consume me. I always thought since I hadn't actually done anything, just had thought things, that I didn't have to tell Jason about it. But in reality that was something I was keeping from him and I realized I don't need to keep things from him. It's dishonest. So tonight I finally got up the courage to talk to him about it and I feel so much better. He is so understanding and forgiving of me. It's nice to have someone that truly loves you.

But his love doesn't compare to the love the God has for me and everyone. No matter what you have done, he is always waiting with open arms to forgive you once your ready to repent. He sent a Savior to die for each and everyone of us, now that is unconditional love.